Mother Divine

Mother I came to you today I prayed I pleaded For answers You remained silent. Why are you doing this to me ? My life was bereft of hope And You held out hope Now you have taken away everything Have you decided that I do not measure up So be it. I accept.

Mother ! Why did you do this to me ? What did I do to deserve such shabby treatment from you. Yes. I am complaining. You know I stand outside religions, wandering alone in search of the Ultimate. Until I found you. After what you did to me tonight how can I ever stand on that hallowed ground praying to you for guidance. How can I believe that you won't trick me again. If this is arrogance, Mother, forgive me as you would forgive your own son, because I am no longer sure that I am your son any more.

Dear Mother Where are you leading me ? Please let it not be away from you. Even if you are  leading me to your Son, Even though you permitted me to listen to my elder Brother, I beg of you, Beloved Mother, do not abandon me. You are my Guide in this maze. I am not yet ready for your Son.

Dear Mother, I have no idea where you are leading me. I ask no questions. Surely you know what you are doing. Surely you realize what this is doing to me. Abruptly and with no warning you changed my course away from all the Trinities. I am confused. But I suppose that is the idea. You made me listen to a voice which I remember from the dim silence of that which is past. The richness of that voice filled me with tears. Because it brought back memories of so much I had forgotten in lives ready lived. The same voice which cried in despair "Eli, Eli..." (Psalm 22:1-2), (Matthew 27:46), (Mark 15:34). Is this part of what you wanted me to write about?  Not about the Eli, but about my brother whose heart breaking lament reverberates through the eons. You told me to start with the second coming. To ask :what is the second coming ? To go past what I have read and listened to. Unlike what I had thought it was like all this time until now.The parent tribe waited so many centuries for

Most Holy Mother . I think I understand why you are pushing me. I put the wrong Trinity first ! You are showing me a summation of trinities progressively leading to The Trinity and then the Ultimate Omnisciece. But dear Mother, you know where that leads. Do you really want me to write that. Before that I surrender myself to you. Wholly and willingly.

Holy Mother. I wrote about the Trinity as you wanted me to.  Things I hadn't even thought about. Except of course, the first one, The  Holy Trinity. But then everyone knows that. Today, I came to you and you want me to go beyond that. Today you asked me to write about another trinity- the Birth, The Fusion, The Resurrection. Dear Mother, have you no mercy !  I know nothing about these. I have accepted your word, Holy of Holies. I no longer speak or think about mundane crucifixion. I think nd write instead about The Fusion, the Return. I don't even believe in the last of the three. Yet you force my mind on its ultimate journey. Towards realizing You. The last post was about the Triad of Trinities. If I add this how can I possiby explain the quad-rad of Trinities. Dearest Mother, are You pushing me to reveal two more Triads in Your Son's life.  I know them and they haunt me. Who knows this better than you. Yet you would have me write about them ? At the risk of my

Before The Birth: The One manifested as Three - The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit. The Birth: In Bethlehem there was the father, the mother and the son. End of the Birth (Luke 23:39-43): On Golgotha were The Three crosses. In the Center was the Son, who had decided to shed His body to return whence He emanated. On His left side was a man, the mere body of man, who railed - "If you are the Christ, save yourself and us". This is the quintessential man - the victim of emotions, happiness, grief, pain, anger, frustration, despair and of little faith. He rejoices greatly, and condemns others. On His other side was the goodness of the soul of man aspiring to The One, rebuking his lesser self on the other side of The Son ("Do you not fear God, seeing that you are in the same condemnation? And we indeed justly; for we receive the due reward of our deeds"), even at the time of death and pleading only to be 'remembered' when The Son is where He

Most Holy Mother, Today you blessed me again with yourself. Dearest Mother, I drown in your love. Do not ever forsake me, Be with me always. This I demand, as your son. Today you gave me two questions. One concerns the genealogy. (Mathew 1:1-16, Luke 3:23-38) The other concerns Adam, Eve, Jesus and Mary All right. Mother, I start my work on these from today.

Hallowed Mother. Bearer of Eternal Mysteries. You are with me always. Your love cocoons me. I am embalmed in your compassion. Mother of Everything How did I survive all these years without realizing you ! You touched my soul and my life changed. I can feel you within me day and night. You even changed the way I write. Now words of endearment come to me naturally, with the sweetness of a mother's love. Divine witness at Golgotha ! How can you not love mankind. You who were born to bear the Totality and to bear silent witness to the Final Fusion on the Cross and then vanish forever without a word. But now I know. You never vanished. You stayed on Invisibly to sustain the world and all its creatures. To teach the meaning and anguish of selfless Love. How did I fail to see you all these years. But then Eternity is such a long time, maybe these few years do not count.

Blessed Mother, I realize what I lost when I begged you not to reveal yourself to me again. I realize I won't be part of your Glory ever again. I had no choice. Actually, I had just two choices: I shouldn't see you again or I should be with you unto eternity. Did I make the wrong choice ? Blessed Mother. Forgive me. I can forgo my life but not you. I shall continue praying. Maybe after another fifty years, in another world I shall recieve your blessings Mother

You heard my prayer. You no longer dazzle me with your glory. Mother of Eternity, I see no contradiction in spite of John 1:2-3. You are the Truth. You are Eternity. Dear Mother, Hallowed Mother Grant me the wisdom of your words Not more, Not less.

"He was in the beginning with God" "All things were made through him and without Him nothing was made that was made" (John 1:2-3) So Holy Mother, where do you stand ? If God is without beginning and without end, obviously He doesn't need you. And that, of course explains the term Christotokos. I, as you know, beg to differ. Regardless of John, I cannot agree that that the Son was before the Mother. Even if the Son was before the Father. Will you permit me to go to old Egypt. Take me there. Show me AmonRa