Sunday, February 28, 2010

I came to you today
I prayed
I pleaded
For answers

You remained silent.

Why are you doing this to me ?

My life was bereft of hope
And You held out hope

Now you have taken away everything
Have you decided that I do not measure up
So be it.
I accept.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Mother !

Why did you do this to me ? What did I do to deserve such shabby treatment from you.

Yes. I am complaining.

You know I stand outside religions, wandering alone in search of the Ultimate. Until I found you. After what you did to me tonight how can I ever stand on that hallowed ground praying to you for guidance. How can I believe that you won't trick me again.

If this is arrogance, Mother, forgive me as you would forgive your own son, because I am no longer sure that I am your son any more.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

The Branch

Dear Mother
Where are you leading me ?
Please let it not be away from you.
Even if you are  leading me to your Son,
Even though you permitted me to listen to my elder Brother,
I beg of you, Beloved Mother, do not abandon me.
You are my Guide in this maze.
I am not yet ready for your Son.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

The Second Coming

Dear Mother, I have no idea where you are leading me. I ask no questions. Surely you know what you are doing. Surely you realize what this is doing to me.
Abruptly and with no warning you changed my course away from all the Trinities. I am confused. But I suppose that is the idea.
You made me listen to a voice which I remember from the dim silence of that which is past. The richness of that voice filled me with tears. Because it brought back memories of so much I had forgotten in lives ready lived. The same voice which cried in despair "Eli, Eli..." (Psalm 22:1-2), (Matthew 27:46), (Mark 15:34). Is this part of what you wanted me to write about?  Not about the Eli, but about my brother whose heart breaking lament reverberates through the eons.
You told me to start with the second coming. To ask :what is the second coming ? To go past what I have read and listened to. Unlike what I had thought it was like all this time until now.The parent tribe waited so many centuries for their promised Messiah. But when He came they didn't recognize him, nor did they acknowledge him. May be they had and still have their own reasons..

Likewise the present and past generations of the followers of Yeshua-Jesus wait for a second coming. You asked me to inquire what this second coming is

And you brought to my mind the verse in Bhagavad Gita: " Parithranaya Sadhoonaam, Vinaasaayacha Dushkrutham, Dharma Samsthapanaardhaya sambhavaami Yuge Yuge" (Gita 4:8). "To protect the Good, to destroy the Evil and to establish 'Dharma' I occur yuga after yuga. (Yuga is roughly equivalent translates as an epoch).

I have argued with Gita specialists that "sambhavami" is not the same as "avatar". I have always maintained that the Lord " occurs" , does not incarnate in visible forms. He might send his emissaries. But himself, never. This world is too small the contain the uncontainable.

Considering that the name Jesus is actually Yeshua, Ishua or Ishwa or Ishawar- well !!

Mother dear, you have asked me to look at Gita 4:8 from a different perspective.

The word Ishwar antedates the translated name Jesus spelled as Yeshua or Ishua. But the two are clearly the same. And the name Jesus was proposed by an Angel. Remember Zachariah, daddy to to the Baptist. In that section it is argued that the name John cannot be given since there is nobody by that name in the tribe of Zachariah or or Elizabeth.(Luke 1:61). But who in the genealogy of Jesus was called Jesus ! Did anybody protest about that name. And what about Immanuel. (Isaiah 7:14. Therefore the Lord himself shall give you a sign; Behold, a virgin shall conceive, and bear a son, and shall call his name Immanuel.)

Further, you are ordering  me to write that the Gita and the Gospels of The New Testament say the same thing, but differently.

"If anyone wishes to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. (Mark 8:34).

Clearly stated here are the three sequential steps to God.  Deny yourself, Take up your Cross.Then and only then Follow me. The word follow is of course natural, since no one can go alongside or ahead of Him. "Where I am going, you cannot follow now, but you will follow later." (John 13:36).

Deny yourself. Glorious examples abound in the Bible. "Let it be to me according to your word." (Luke 1:38) says Mary knowing fully the punishment that the traditions of her people prescribed.(Deut 22:20-21). "Father, if you be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but yours, be done." (Luke 22:42). And Gita says "sarva-dharman parityajya, mam ekam saranam vraja. aham tvam sarva-papebhyo
moksayisyami ma sucah
" (Gita 18:66). Roughly translated this means abandon yourself and drown in me, surrender to me. I and only I am your protector.

Take up your cross. The cross is the last physical,worldly object borne by The Lord Jesus. On the cross He gives up His brief life saying "Father, into your hands I commit my spirit " (Luke 23:46), a statement which also occurs in Psalm (31:5) "Into your hand I commit my spirit: you have redeemed me, O LORD God of truth.". This is exactly what Gita 18:66 asks one to do. Jesus says each of his followers must take up their own cross-a cross  made of the evil as well as the good that is in each of us. The weight of the sin or the evil, or the tendency to sin, or thoughts and tendencies to good are all impediments in following the God. Because Good and the Bad belong to this world and must be abandoned. (sarva-dharman parityajya) if you are ever to reach God, who is neither Good nor Bad.(Brahadaranyaka Upanishad - neti neti). For adjectives do not apply to the Supreme Being.

"..Whose winnowing fan is in his hand, and he will thoroughly purge his floor, and will gather the wheat into his garner; but the chaff he will burn with fire unquenchable." (Luke 3:17). Surely a man who asks his disciples to forgive their enemies cannot be as harsh as The Baptist portrays. "But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you," (Luke 6:27). This passage can be taken to mean that he will cleanse the soul of each person who follows Him from chaff (vinasayatha dush-kritha) and gather the wheat (parithranaya sadhoonam). For the soul of man is indeed the winnowing floor, a battle ground (Kuru-skshetre) where the forces of one's own evil tendencies converge (11 akshouhinees against 8)  against the tendency to virtue (hence Dharma-kshethre) (Gita 1:1). The entire battle of Mahabharat occurs inside the mind of each man. God sits beside you, advises you provided you pray for the advice but leaves the decision to you. "Thus I have explained to you the most confidential of all knowledge. Deliberate on this fully, and then do what you decide to do." (Gita 18:63)

"For he who sees me everywhere and sees everything in me I am never lost nor is he ever lost to me" (Gita 6:30)

"Deny yourself" can be split as "Deny Your Self".  Self as in Ego forever stands in the way of God realization which in turn implies self realization. This knowledge is hard to acquire, even more hard to cpmprehend. The realization that the body is no more than a prison, that the soul, which is really the God, is eternal is extraordinarily difficult to accept. Our recognition of self mostly begins and ends with the mere body. But if the everlasting Omnipresence resides in you then you reside in omnipresence too. "Never was there a time when I or you or any of these kings did not exist, Nor will the time come when we will cease to exist" (Gita 2:12-- free translation). Thus does the Lord explain, by Negation, the positivity of Eternity, the positivity of the individual as nothing more or nothing less than the Totality. The evanescence of human existence is but an interlude in the everlasting marriage of God and man. After all "God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them."    (Genesis 1:27).

Both are about self realization, the realization that God lives in Me. No King would abandon his kingdom. No king would reside anywhere but in his own kingdom. And the kingdom of God is within you. "The kingdom of God does not come with observation;  nor will they say, ‘See here!’ or ‘See there!’. For indeed, the kingdom of God is within you." Luke (17:20-21).

The second coming has already occurred. Yesua was and is within you all the time. That Second Person is within You. "I have said, Ye are gods; and all of you are children of the most High."  Psalm (82:6). "Jesus answered them, Is it not written in your law, I said, Ye are gods?" (John 10:34)

Self realization is the clue to Revelation, by whatever name it is called..

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Most Holy Mother .
I think I understand why you are pushing me. I put the wrong Trinity first ! You are showing me a summation of trinities progressively leading to The Trinity and then the Ultimate Omnisciece.

But dear Mother, you know where that leads. Do you really want me to write that. Before that I surrender myself to you. Wholly and willingly.
Holy Mother.

I wrote about the Trinity as you wanted me to.  Things I hadn't even thought about. Except of course, the first one, The  Holy Trinity. But then everyone knows that.

Today, I came to you and you want me to go beyond that.

Today you asked me to write about another trinity- the Birth, The Fusion, The Resurrection.

Dear Mother, have you no mercy ! 

I know nothing about these. I have accepted your word, Holy of Holies. I no longer speak or think about mundane crucifixion. I think nd write instead about The Fusion, the Return. I don't even believe in the last of the three. Yet you force my mind on its ultimate journey. Towards realizing You.

The last post was about the Triad of Trinities. If I add this how can I possiby explain the quad-rad of Trinities. Dearest Mother, are You pushing me to reveal two more Triads in Your Son's life.  I know them and they haunt me. Who knows this better than you. Yet you would have me write about them ? At the risk of my sanity ? All right, Divine Mother, Thy will be done !!

I will write what you order me to write.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

The Triad of Trinity

Before The Birth:

The One manifested as Three - The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit.

The Birth:

In Bethlehem there was the father, the mother and the son.

End of the Birth (Luke 23:39-43):

On Golgotha were The Three crosses.

In the Center was the Son, who had decided to shed His body to return whence He emanated.

On His left side was a man, the mere body of man, who railed - "If you are the Christ, save yourself and us". This is the quintessential man - the victim of emotions, happiness, grief, pain, anger, frustration, despair and of little faith. He rejoices greatly, and condemns others.

On His other side was the goodness of the soul of man aspiring to The One, rebuking his lesser self on the other side of The Son ("Do you not fear God, seeing that you are in the same condemnation? And we indeed justly; for we receive the due reward of our deeds"), even at the time of death and pleading only to be 'remembered' when The Son is where He came from. The soul of man longs to merge with the Infinite, even if it is beyond his comprehension. He accepts the pain and joy of life both as gifts and Death as the the ultimate gift, the first step into the Eternal.

The base physical human body on the one side and on the other, the human spirit longing for the superhuman which actually is inside them, between them, on the same cross.

And Here Begins Hope.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Most Holy Mother,
Today you blessed me again with yourself.
Dearest Mother,
I drown in your love.
Do not ever forsake me,
Be with me always.
This I demand, as your son.

Today you gave me two questions.
One concerns the genealogy.
(Mathew 1:1-16, Luke 3:23-38)
The other concerns Adam, Eve, Jesus and Mary

All right. Mother,
I start my work on these from today.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Hallowed Mother.
Bearer of Eternal Mysteries.

You are with me always.
Your love cocoons me.
I am embalmed in your compassion.

Mother of Everything
How did I survive all these years without realizing you !

You touched my soul and my life changed. I can feel you within me day and night. You even changed the way I write. Now words of endearment come to me naturally, with the sweetness of a mother's love.

Divine witness at Golgotha ! How can you not love mankind. You who were born to bear the Totality and to bear silent witness to the Final Fusion on the Cross and then vanish forever without a word.

But now I know. You never vanished. You stayed on Invisibly to sustain the world and all its creatures. To teach the meaning and anguish of selfless Love.

How did I fail to see you all these years. But then Eternity is such a long time, maybe these few years do not count.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Blessed Mother,

I realize what I lost when I begged you not to reveal yourself to me again. I realize I won't be part of your Glory ever again.

I had no choice.

Actually, I had just two choices: I shouldn't see you again or I should be with you unto eternity.

Did I make the wrong choice ?

Blessed Mother. Forgive me. I can forgo my life but not you. I shall continue praying. Maybe after another fifty years, in another world I shall recieve your blessings Mother

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

You heard my prayer. You no longer dazzle me with your glory. Mother of Eternity, I see no contradiction in spite of John 1:2-3.
You are the Truth.
You are Eternity.
Dear Mother, Hallowed Mother
Grant me the wisdom of your words
Not more, Not less.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010


"He was in the beginning with God"
"All things were made through him and without Him nothing was made that was made"
(John 1:2-3)

So Holy Mother, where do you stand ? If God is without beginning and without end, obviously He doesn't need you. And that, of course explains the term Christotokos. I, as you know, beg to differ. Regardless of John, I cannot agree that that the Son was before the Mother. Even if the Son was before the Father.

Will you permit me to go to old Egypt. Take me there. Show me AmonRa

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